7 days off from work for spring break sure went by fast!
Nick and I went to a coastal town not far away at the start of the break to celebrate our 5 year anniversary. We were only there for 2 nights and 3 days and boy did we live it up! I'm talking we spent $200+ at each lunch and dinner! Thank God we at least had free breakfast provided by our hotel! We spent a lot of money but we did have a lot of fun. We kind of fit everything into this trip - nice, upscale restaurants, casual restaurants, walking the town during the day and night, walking in a scenic park, and even a beach day! I really enjoyed all of it. Nick and I did have a spat or two during the trip and we did not end our 6 month dry spell. You would think having fun on an anniversary trip would do it, but no. I still have zero interest where that is concerned and he didn't even initiate anything. Idk, we just don't seem to have a physical connection or passion anymore.
After our trip, I drove back to my hometown for a doctor's visit where I got a free sample of Ozempic, a diabetes drug that's approved for weight loss. It's a once weekly injection. I haven't started it yet, but I'm hoping it'll do something for me. My face is looking so round and ugly these days! Big ass cheeks and double chin. Ugh. I also asked my doctor about my chronic dry cough and if it could be related to my blood pressure medicine, which she didn't think so. She thinks it's related to my chronic heartburn, which it probably is. She is putting in a referral for me to see a specialist. Sigh. I guess it's time.
I had planned to return back home after spending a few days with my mom and Amber (the pregnant sister), but plans changed when Amber's doctor told her that she needed to be induced and to go ahead and have her baby since he was growth restricted. Apparently, the risk of stillbirth increases if you leave growth restricted babies in the womb for too long. Amber was disappointed that she didn't get to have birth spontaneously, but that's just how things go sometimes. She gave birth to her baby boy, Max, on Saturday, April 16th. He weighed 4 lbs, 15 oz, so he was small, but otherwise healthy and okay. I'm glad Amber had a great, easy pregnancy and a good delivery. Max is a sweet, cute little guy! He's very chill and mostly just sleeps. Amber's husband is 100% American (born and raised here, speaks only English) but his ancestry is 100% Asian. His dad is from China and his mom is from Thailand. Max looked very Chinese when he was born, but his looks have already changed in the last few days. He definitely has darker hair - it looked black when he was born but now it seems to be a dark brown - and his dad's eyes and nose. We think he has Amber's chin. Lol he's just so cute and small! His coming home outfit was way too big on him.
Amber was definitely meant to be a mom. She has always loved babies and is a natural at it. She prepared so diligently for pregnancy by eating healthy and she was super healthy all throughout the pregnancy. After getting home from the hospital, she did have a little crying moment because she was trying to use her new breast pump and it wasn't working as easily as the pump in the hospital. Max is so small and doesn't latch very well as he's so sleepy most of the time. The hospital sent them home with some formula to supplement which is another disappointment because Amber thought she'd be able to feed him exclusively on breast milk alone. She's finding out that no matter how hard you plan and prepare, some things don't go the way you want it and you just have to adjust. However Max gets fed (whether by formula in a bottle or by milk from a boob) doesn't matter just as long as he's eating in some kind of way. She's just worried about how small he is and getting him fed enough. She's a classic new mom! She will be great at this and will get it figured out. Her husband Chris is also an amazing help. He's always so calm and chill - I've literally never ever seen this guy have any emotion even remotely close to upset or angry. Some would say he's too chill, maybe even a little emotionally flat, but it's nice to have someone with just the chillest vibe around when things are new and stressful. He gets 6 weeks of paternity leave, so that's great he'll be there to help Amber with the baby. His mom has also flown in from Thailand and says she'll do a lot of cooking for them. Amber has a great team around her! My mom is also there and available anytime.
I just got back home yesterday after being away for 7 days. It kind of sucked not having any time at home before having to return to work today, but oh well. Being there for the birth of my nephew was worth it. I missed Ollie, my orange tabby kitty, so much! Nick said Ollie has been all out of sorts without me there. I was glad to be back with him and to feel his little warm, purring body next to me in the bed last night. He's the best little kitty.
One thing that did happen over my long absence that I didn't really intend but had been thinking about was stopping birth control pills. Since I had not planned to be out of town for so long, I didn't bring my next pack of pills with me because I thought I'd be home to take them. I should have started a new pill pack on Friday, but I didn't get home until Monday. I think I'll just not resume them and see how it goes. There's no chance of me getting pregnant since I don't have sex. If an opportunity ever does arise, Nick will just have to use protection. Protection can be his job now, if he wants to be intimate. I've taken a pill that fucks up my body for who knows how long now...like 10 years at least! I'm at a higher risk of blood clots based on my genetics and other factors, so I definitely don't want to take these birth control pills that *also* increase the risk of blood clots if I don't absolutely have to. If Nick and I were intimate all the time, I would definitely stay on the pill, but it has been over 6 months. There's no need for a daily pill.
Well, that's about all the updates I have for now!
1:25 p.m. - Tuesday, Apr. 19, 2022