happyone's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Money Makes the World Go Round As someone who struggles with social anxiety (and some generalized), I really picked the wrong career for myself. I hate having to speak up in groups, but that's basically all my job is. Not only that, but I am expected to have a certain level of expertise about everything in my field. This year, I'll be working at a high school, which is a totally new environment for me. I've only worked at the elementary level, so I am very nervous about this new placement. I have been doing my job for going on the fifth year now, but this new placement makes me feel like I don't know what I'm doing and that's a bad feeling. I have an appointment coming up in early October to get some new anxiety medications. I have only been taking anxiety medications as needed, but this year I think I will need something every day.
I really shouldn't complain because I know how much worse off I could be. My mom had to raise two children on a teacher salary as a single parent. I can't imagine! I have no idea how she did that. I should embrace what I have and not be jealous. It's just that Money is so important today. I have $69,000 of student loans that have now grown to $77,000, thanks to interest. I am hoping that my loans will be forgiven after working in the public school system for 10 years. If they aren't forgiven for whatever reason, I really will be screwed because I will probably owe more than when I started due to interest. I will owe so much that I will never be able to pay it off, and that's just a depressing thought. If I think I don't have much money now, I worry about how things will be once Nick and I have kids. They are freaking expensive! I guess I should go to work now. I hope today isn't too bad. At least it is Friday and I have a three day weekend, thanks to the solar eclipse passing right over my state. 9:00 a.m. - Friday, Aug. 18, 2017 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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